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So lately I've been discovering that the reason I don't have any friends in Chicago is more the point that I didn't really hang out with the friends I had here. That in itself has opened up new possibilities that I never before thought of.
The other night was the first time I stayed out until the party ended at Woody's which was about 4ish. It was quite awesome.
I hate to blame this all on the relationship but in truth it was more me in general I think. I didn't want to leave Jason out of a lot of things and hanging out with the furs would do just that. So basically I limited my fun and friend finding to me being a couple. Now that I no longer am connected to someone I'm finding so many more friends that I thought possible. I'm also finding out just how many people like me too with is a very strange yet awesome feeling.
Speaking of this feeling, I also have to mention the guy I like. I know he likes me even though he really hasn't said so but just spending so much time with me I figured that out. A lot of the time which he has very little of even. I wish I could spend more time with him but understand school and work are priorities. The time I do get to spend with him is awesome though. I think what surprises me about this whole thing though is more that fact that this completely caught me off guard. I wasn't looking for anything and he found me. Which made me wonder for a while what he saw in me, liked in me. Someone at work told me though that if you don't know and you weren't trying then they like you for who you are. I never though of it that way and made me immensely happy. So I'm rather happy this is working out and hope it continues to work out.
Besides being sick right now, I feel my life is rather nice. I still need to find something for me to do though. I feel my work life lacks any passion. I mean I see everyone around me going into fields that they can thrive in and I'm just sitting back and doing nothing with mine. You know when everyone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up the first answer was always writer but then after that I was unsure. Even with writer I was unsure. Even now as I think about it I don't know what I want to do. I mean I want to be part of something creative but other than that I can't figure out what.
The other night was the first time I stayed out until the party ended at Woody's which was about 4ish. It was quite awesome.
I hate to blame this all on the relationship but in truth it was more me in general I think. I didn't want to leave Jason out of a lot of things and hanging out with the furs would do just that. So basically I limited my fun and friend finding to me being a couple. Now that I no longer am connected to someone I'm finding so many more friends that I thought possible. I'm also finding out just how many people like me too with is a very strange yet awesome feeling.
Speaking of this feeling, I also have to mention the guy I like. I know he likes me even though he really hasn't said so but just spending so much time with me I figured that out. A lot of the time which he has very little of even. I wish I could spend more time with him but understand school and work are priorities. The time I do get to spend with him is awesome though. I think what surprises me about this whole thing though is more that fact that this completely caught me off guard. I wasn't looking for anything and he found me. Which made me wonder for a while what he saw in me, liked in me. Someone at work told me though that if you don't know and you weren't trying then they like you for who you are. I never though of it that way and made me immensely happy. So I'm rather happy this is working out and hope it continues to work out.
Besides being sick right now, I feel my life is rather nice. I still need to find something for me to do though. I feel my work life lacks any passion. I mean I see everyone around me going into fields that they can thrive in and I'm just sitting back and doing nothing with mine. You know when everyone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up the first answer was always writer but then after that I was unsure. Even with writer I was unsure. Even now as I think about it I don't know what I want to do. I mean I want to be part of something creative but other than that I can't figure out what.
