Monday Night Burgers Chicago Planning

Okay so I have listened to everyone about the MNB events and think that we should probably implement some changes but for this I need some input.

Monday Night Burgers Chicago is usually held at the Hop Haus because it has good burgers and is very convenient to transit of all sorts. The down side is their alcohol selection is limited and what they do have is rather expensive.

There are numerous burger places throughout the city but are either out of the way of public transit and/or have no parking.

Also it's a problem to have it every week, which I can understand, and as I say you don't have to come every week, but it seems to be well visited on most nights in general. So thinking of making it every other week is an option as well as a monthly event.

So here's where everyone else comes in. I would like some suggestions, ideas, anything in general to help along with this process. In general I will probably make the final decision based on the suggestions I hear.

So go on post your ideas :3

(Will most likely post this to the LAFF and Chicago Furs Journals as well).

Who am I?

The more I try and change myself the more I stay the same, so I have to look back and see who am I? Once I really take a look... I really don't know who I am. I mean I know the semi social side, I know my friends and the people I like, I know my kinks, but I really don't know me anymore.

I guess this is coming about because things have changed in my life a lot recently but they seem to have... not changed at all. The thing is I want them to change very much but don't know how to start on myself. If it was just easy to do I would but it isn't, believe me with as many false starts and non-committals I've put myself through I know this. I beginning to wonder if I just need some help, in the medical/psychological profession.

I think the point is I don't feel my life is worth much in general which is why I try to fill it with stuff and friends and relationships but in the end the one thing that usually does change is me. I do admit with each new relationship and friend I add I do grow, but I haven't even reached any potential of what I could be. I'm a dreamer and not a doer, and it's not like I don't want to do I just don't. Originally I thought it was lack of motivation, but I currently have all the motivation in the world and nothing. Maybe depression, but lately I've been the happiest I've been in a long time and yet still it seems depressed.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I mean there has got to be something I can pinpoint and say "AHA!" and fix it. Or is this something I really just need to work on cause I know if it is I can't do it by myself anymore, can I really do anything by myself.

I suppose this has come about because I'm looking at all my friends and look at myself and wonder why am I in the position I'm in and how to get out of it. This is my current motivation for change, but once I look at it I can't seem to do much about it. How can I change myself when it seems I am unwilling to do it.

I just... don't know what to do anymore.

Unexpected

I have to say as much as I'm not overly fond of the field I'm in I love my boss and coworkers.

But today I really love my boss. Today I had my annual review, and even though it basically sucked we worked on a way that would help me not only at work but in life a bit too. And what is that you may ask. Well it's planning.

Basically after my last whiny rant this falls into my lab and makes me rethink things a lot.

So basically being a dreamer I plan things that are unobtainable and then whine that I will never get them. But my boss showed me something that I should have thought of which is basically staged planning. Do short term, mid term and long term goals and then try to reach them... and make them something that is reasonable, start small then go for bigger things. I am going to try and utilize this but at the same time I think I will do what Jim said in my last post and see about talking to someone about my problems.