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So.... HI LJ :3
Okay yeah I know I've been neglecting you *pets* but I will still whine at you ;3
Okay I thought since the title should make the first part weird anyway.
I've been doing amazingly well recently and it's put me in a weird spot it seems.
Lets preface this a little bit first though. After visiting DC and then after MFF I have basically decided that my life needs a change. One of the biggest things that I did to change it was to take things into my own hands, like my social life again. For some reason when I was in a relationship I always thought I couldn't do anything without my BF otherwise I'd hurt his feelings and when I did do stuff without him felt weird for leaving him behind. Now that that connection is gone I realized... I really had no friends locally. So inspired by my DC friends I set up Monday Night Burgers Chicago which strangely enough has opened me up a lot and has people seemingly coming out of the woodwork telling me they like me.
Okay now there's absolutely nothing wrong with that, I'm in fact amazingly flattered because I have felt like no one really liked me in general, so getting this from many people is, to me a bit weird. Why weird, because I a totally not used to it. It's like when you first realize you're attractive and getting all this attention and feel a bit overwhelmed by it. I guess that's how I feel right now.
Don't get me wrong though I love the attention but at the same point it confuses me to some degree. Mainly because my emotions are still a rollercoaster and not sure if something is more than it is or I just make feel it is.
So yeah there it is. I think maybe I should do that ten day meme now maybe that will help me get some things off my chest.
Okay yeah I know I've been neglecting you *pets* but I will still whine at you ;3
Okay I thought since the title should make the first part weird anyway.
I've been doing amazingly well recently and it's put me in a weird spot it seems.
Lets preface this a little bit first though. After visiting DC and then after MFF I have basically decided that my life needs a change. One of the biggest things that I did to change it was to take things into my own hands, like my social life again. For some reason when I was in a relationship I always thought I couldn't do anything without my BF otherwise I'd hurt his feelings and when I did do stuff without him felt weird for leaving him behind. Now that that connection is gone I realized... I really had no friends locally. So inspired by my DC friends I set up Monday Night Burgers Chicago which strangely enough has opened me up a lot and has people seemingly coming out of the woodwork telling me they like me.
Okay now there's absolutely nothing wrong with that, I'm in fact amazingly flattered because I have felt like no one really liked me in general, so getting this from many people is, to me a bit weird. Why weird, because I a totally not used to it. It's like when you first realize you're attractive and getting all this attention and feel a bit overwhelmed by it. I guess that's how I feel right now.
Don't get me wrong though I love the attention but at the same point it confuses me to some degree. Mainly because my emotions are still a rollercoaster and not sure if something is more than it is or I just make feel it is.
So yeah there it is. I think maybe I should do that ten day meme now maybe that will help me get some things off my chest.
