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So lately I have been sleeping much less and I'm not sure if it's the CPAP is actually working the way it should be and I'm getting better quality sleep when I get it or that my schedule just somehow got majorly screwed up. But since I'm awake I guess I could go through the things that have been happening recently.
MFF was awesome and has lead me to chat more with friends in the DC area and in general. I seemed to have forgotten that I have a lot of friends out there that I just haven't kept in contact with. When once I used to not be able to talk to anyone online I know have five to six conversations going at once.I have to say I missed that a little. Also because of this I decided to set up my own Chicago version of DCs Monday Night Burgers which the first one was a huge success. We had 11 people show up for the first one :3 I, of course, plan to do this on a regular basis.
With that I'm trying to be more social about Chicago but finding it hard. I think being in a relationship that was mostly anti-social kind-of limited my social connections here. Hopefully MNBChicago will change that though but still I don't think it'll be as good as if I first moved here.
We got rid of cable. Finally. And now I feel like I have more time to do other things (once someone basically kicked me in the butt last night to actually start it). I dunno why I always seem to need a little push in order to get something accomplished and always have excuses why not to do something. I really don't understand why that is besides lacking self confidence but lately I seem to be getting more of that as well.
The condo is actually not bad right now. Jason is being extremely nice it seems letting me make rent payments and also has been paying for a bit of food still, so much so that I feel like I'm taking advantage of him, although I know he knows that I had a bad month money wise. I'm trying to be more careful on what I charge lately and trying not to buy anything out much except for MNB but unfortunately it seems I can't help myself all the time. Either way it feel like I am doing much better than before. I'm hoping to pay of my current CC and not use it massively for a while though just very occasionally. Medical Bills on it really don't help though.
As much as things have changed in the condo they still feel very much the same and it's a bit weird. I mean it sometimes feels like we are still in our relationship even though we aren't. Like we still leave to work at the same time, still usually sit together on the train, still go out with each other unless I have some furry thing to go to. Not that I overly mind because I am much more fond of doing things with people... it just feels odd as we seem to have lost a bit of that connection we once had. I'm sure once I move though he and I will be great friends just right now it seems little things annoy me.
Speaking of the condo, I dunno I just don't feel motivated to do anything in it. I think Jason feels the same way. This makes it a vicious cycle though, one where he doesn't do anything, which makes me not think he cares, which makes me not care, which makes me not do anything. I think we need to come up with chores or something, figure out what we need to do and just do it. Otherwise I don't think anything will get done.
MFF was awesome and has lead me to chat more with friends in the DC area and in general. I seemed to have forgotten that I have a lot of friends out there that I just haven't kept in contact with. When once I used to not be able to talk to anyone online I know have five to six conversations going at once.I have to say I missed that a little. Also because of this I decided to set up my own Chicago version of DCs Monday Night Burgers which the first one was a huge success. We had 11 people show up for the first one :3 I, of course, plan to do this on a regular basis.
With that I'm trying to be more social about Chicago but finding it hard. I think being in a relationship that was mostly anti-social kind-of limited my social connections here. Hopefully MNBChicago will change that though but still I don't think it'll be as good as if I first moved here.
We got rid of cable. Finally. And now I feel like I have more time to do other things (once someone basically kicked me in the butt last night to actually start it). I dunno why I always seem to need a little push in order to get something accomplished and always have excuses why not to do something. I really don't understand why that is besides lacking self confidence but lately I seem to be getting more of that as well.
The condo is actually not bad right now. Jason is being extremely nice it seems letting me make rent payments and also has been paying for a bit of food still, so much so that I feel like I'm taking advantage of him, although I know he knows that I had a bad month money wise. I'm trying to be more careful on what I charge lately and trying not to buy anything out much except for MNB but unfortunately it seems I can't help myself all the time. Either way it feel like I am doing much better than before. I'm hoping to pay of my current CC and not use it massively for a while though just very occasionally. Medical Bills on it really don't help though.
As much as things have changed in the condo they still feel very much the same and it's a bit weird. I mean it sometimes feels like we are still in our relationship even though we aren't. Like we still leave to work at the same time, still usually sit together on the train, still go out with each other unless I have some furry thing to go to. Not that I overly mind because I am much more fond of doing things with people... it just feels odd as we seem to have lost a bit of that connection we once had. I'm sure once I move though he and I will be great friends just right now it seems little things annoy me.
Speaking of the condo, I dunno I just don't feel motivated to do anything in it. I think Jason feels the same way. This makes it a vicious cycle though, one where he doesn't do anything, which makes me not think he cares, which makes me not care, which makes me not do anything. I think we need to come up with chores or something, figure out what we need to do and just do it. Otherwise I don't think anything will get done.
