What are we going to do now?

That has been the biggest thing on my mind lately and the thing that I'm more scared and worried about than anything.

I'd be stupid to think that absolutely nothing will change, also just as stupid to think absolutely nothing should change. I'd prefer nothing to change but... in reality they already have.

I think it's just time to figure out what we both want to do.

I mean I think we have come to the decision to keep the condo and keep things pretty much as they are for now but we still need to think of the next step.

I can't even go into what that will be because I'm not even sure what steps we should or shouldn't take. I mean this is not about hurting each other at all, it's just about figuring out how to continue forward without it becoming awkward and weird.

Emotionally I am really okay but in truth this step feels worse than deciding we make better friends.

More updates when they become available.

Release

I forgot how much of a stress release it was to put my thoughts down here. I mean it seems the more I write down about my fears and anxieties about things lately the less of them I feel... well you know what I mean.

Having LJ and friends behind it has been a great help for me these past few days and I'm sure will be a great help with things to come. So I just wanted to thank everyone who has been here for me so far.