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I'm actually okay
Apr. 29th, 2010 09:45 amIt's weird, for the first time in a long time when I say I'm okay I actually mean it.
For those of you not on my friends list who read this (don't know who is/would), my BF and I basically ended our relationship... Well I wouldn't say ended it but maybe say we just decided to be friends rather than partners.
It has been a long time coming actually. Everything we have done we basically did to try to further our relationship with each other but nothing ever did. We both tried and we both failed to connect in that way but it's okay.
I still love him as possibly my dearest friend at this point and in reality not much will actually change for now. Eventually things will have to change at some point.
I think that's what I'm more worried about at this point, the changes. I mean we have stayed together for this long because I think we got into this comfort zone with each other, even though we both knew something was wrong we just never wanted to hurt the other person. But at the same point we never really had the type of relationship that one would call a relationship really.
So yeah back to changes.
You know I really don't want to go into the changes right now actually. I know there are some things that need to be done eventually, but we'll get there. There's so many more things I want to say but at the same time I think I need more time to think on things too. But it's all good I think things are going to remain mostly the same for right now and we'll get to changing things when we feel they need to be changed.
For those of you not on my friends list who read this (don't know who is/would), my BF and I basically ended our relationship... Well I wouldn't say ended it but maybe say we just decided to be friends rather than partners.
It has been a long time coming actually. Everything we have done we basically did to try to further our relationship with each other but nothing ever did. We both tried and we both failed to connect in that way but it's okay.
I still love him as possibly my dearest friend at this point and in reality not much will actually change for now. Eventually things will have to change at some point.
I think that's what I'm more worried about at this point, the changes. I mean we have stayed together for this long because I think we got into this comfort zone with each other, even though we both knew something was wrong we just never wanted to hurt the other person. But at the same point we never really had the type of relationship that one would call a relationship really.
So yeah back to changes.
You know I really don't want to go into the changes right now actually. I know there are some things that need to be done eventually, but we'll get there. There's so many more things I want to say but at the same time I think I need more time to think on things too. But it's all good I think things are going to remain mostly the same for right now and we'll get to changing things when we feel they need to be changed.
