Stuff

I have to say recently I have had a decent life. I'm so glad that I moved away from Cincinnati because I never would have experienced half the things I have since moving here. But recently I was just thinking about what another friend of mine posted on his LJ. Basically he said he felt like a failure, which makes me think if he's a failure then I'm a huge failure. I mean I seem to like getting into comfortable ruts. Granted what I have right now is very comfortable but doesn't feel like a rut this time. It just feels like thought my life could be better if I do something different. I mean lets see... I lived in Cincinnati for about 20 years of my life. I graduated college with a BS in English and Minor in Philosophy. But it still didn't help that I stayed at a retail job after that for about five/six more years. I worked in Kmart from Senior year through college and after for 11 years. I mean I learned a lot with it but at the same time I know that form of retail for me was a dead end even when I moved to Chicago and got another retail job at Target. It's funny though but I feel like from where I was that I have been rather successful. I have a decent job, great friends local and far away, a decent job that I mostly like and a great BF who helped me accomplish these things.

So if I feel like a success but am worse off than my friend who feels like a failure... I don't know just seems weird to me. I mean I am kind-of jealous of him personally. I mean he had the courage to stick his neck out and do things I wouldn't even consider unless a whole lot of conditions were right. I mean I have all these grand ideas of what I want my future to be but I don't think I would ever really pursue any of those lofty goals. And even if I did and failed at it I would still not feel like a failure, because it takes courage just to try the thing you want. So yeah... If you reading this, friend, I would never consider you a failure no matter what choices you had to make :3