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Glasses and stuff
Sep. 16th, 2010 09:10 amI got my new glasses and YAY I actually look really good in them. It's a completely different look for me because before my glasses weren't even noticeable but now they very much are, but at the same time make people actually notice my face more. Just have to get used to my new prescription though. There was a huge change in my astigmatism which is making things a bit more troublesome than they used to be but I'm slowly getting used to it.
As for life... things seem to be going back to normal somewhat which for me is not really that good. I don't want things to be normal right now. I want things to change but it seems my ex is not in the mood for it or even talking about it. I'm beginning to think it may be better to just separate what I can and cut my losses. I mean I don't really want to leave him with a whole bunch of crap but when we rarely talk anymore how can we say what we want or don't want to do. Also it doesn't seem like he really listens anymore anyway. After I got back from Maryland I basically told him that I wanted to move there and this week when I told him again he seemed to have forgotten the whole conversation before. I just don't get it anymore. I want to move ahead and move on and it doesn't seem like he wants to. The sad thing is I think he needs the change as much as I do. At one point he even said he was thinking of moving to Portland, which I think he would really enjoy.
Anyway I think tonight I'm really going to ask about finances and get some answers and even state that maybe I was wrong suggestion that we keep our accounts together. Personally I think we need to separate them at this time just so we know how much is going where and how much we are actually making. I don't mind paying half of everything I just need to know what that half is so I can take care of my other things as well.
In better news I'm still going to the gym, still making food at home, still cutting out a big portion of sweets. I feel I have gotten ten times better than I used to be. I have gone from 240 to 238... which isn't much but still that's a work in progress. I'm hoping at some point to be 190-180ish so that's about 50 lbs that need to come off. Also I don't mind if I gain muscles and loose inches because that's what I'd prefer anyway.
Cooking - I have been getting recipes off of Food Network's website and making things myself. It's been good really. Now I just need to figure out how to stop getting seconds. Anyway I have been trying to add veggies to my meals more than I ever have. I need to eat much healthier than I have been. Also cooking at home has already saved a lot more money from going out all the time. I mean I know you can spend $20 going out $40 on two for just one meal. I spent $100 on breakfast, lunch and dinner for a full week by buying groceries. If I knew there was this much savings in it and wasn't really that hard to make things I would have been doing this all along.
I finished my book this week and now started on "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" which was a bit hard to get into at first but now is getting rather good (once they introduced the main character). I really do need to sit down and write some and stop watching TV. Hopefully with our talk on budgeting things the cable will go away which will basically leave me no choice but to do things away from it.
Okay I think I've rambled enough. Will try and post more when time permits. Laters.
As for life... things seem to be going back to normal somewhat which for me is not really that good. I don't want things to be normal right now. I want things to change but it seems my ex is not in the mood for it or even talking about it. I'm beginning to think it may be better to just separate what I can and cut my losses. I mean I don't really want to leave him with a whole bunch of crap but when we rarely talk anymore how can we say what we want or don't want to do. Also it doesn't seem like he really listens anymore anyway. After I got back from Maryland I basically told him that I wanted to move there and this week when I told him again he seemed to have forgotten the whole conversation before. I just don't get it anymore. I want to move ahead and move on and it doesn't seem like he wants to. The sad thing is I think he needs the change as much as I do. At one point he even said he was thinking of moving to Portland, which I think he would really enjoy.
Anyway I think tonight I'm really going to ask about finances and get some answers and even state that maybe I was wrong suggestion that we keep our accounts together. Personally I think we need to separate them at this time just so we know how much is going where and how much we are actually making. I don't mind paying half of everything I just need to know what that half is so I can take care of my other things as well.
In better news I'm still going to the gym, still making food at home, still cutting out a big portion of sweets. I feel I have gotten ten times better than I used to be. I have gone from 240 to 238... which isn't much but still that's a work in progress. I'm hoping at some point to be 190-180ish so that's about 50 lbs that need to come off. Also I don't mind if I gain muscles and loose inches because that's what I'd prefer anyway.
Cooking - I have been getting recipes off of Food Network's website and making things myself. It's been good really. Now I just need to figure out how to stop getting seconds. Anyway I have been trying to add veggies to my meals more than I ever have. I need to eat much healthier than I have been. Also cooking at home has already saved a lot more money from going out all the time. I mean I know you can spend $20 going out $40 on two for just one meal. I spent $100 on breakfast, lunch and dinner for a full week by buying groceries. If I knew there was this much savings in it and wasn't really that hard to make things I would have been doing this all along.
I finished my book this week and now started on "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" which was a bit hard to get into at first but now is getting rather good (once they introduced the main character). I really do need to sit down and write some and stop watching TV. Hopefully with our talk on budgeting things the cable will go away which will basically leave me no choice but to do things away from it.
Okay I think I've rambled enough. Will try and post more when time permits. Laters.
