Life in general

Last night and this morning I just realized I haven't really been happy with my life lately. And it's funny it really just hit me. I mean I knew it it small pieces here and there that I wasn't happy but never just the full scope.

So lemme back track a bit. Last night we went to a comedy club, The Annoyance, and say basically two comedians, whom were rather drunk, who basically did an almost open forum. One came out and passed around some questions and then asked the audience to come up with their own. It was a decent experience I think, but what really hit me was these two ladies were doing what they loved despite the fact that there really isn't much money in it. I've never been one to do that and I think that's one of the breaking points for me doing anything relatively creative... well that and the fact that I would be a complete failure at it. But these two ladies are doing what they love despite those two things.

This made me think of a life motto.

Typically I have tried to live life in a "Don't worry, be happy" type way, Hakuna Matata if you will. Basically don't worry about things and just live and be happy. Lately... I haven't been happy and have worried way too much. I shouldn't settle for a life that's stable just because it makes me comfortable. I should work at being happy, no matter the cost. It doesn't mean that I should neglect responsibilities, but it means that I should be responsible and be happy at the same time.

So I think I need to get back to my motto, or at least the "be happy" part of it. Once I am happy then I should have little to worry about, or if I do have things to worry about at least they will be more manageable.

On the creative side of things, what has made me happy lately has been creating things in SL. On that same token though I need to work on sewing and possibly drawing so I can create my own fashion designs if possible.

Either way last night was a real eye opener for me... hopefully it will stick a lot more and get me out of my lazy funk :3