Thoughts on change

I had a whole post on what I really wanted to say typed on my phone and it was deleted by accidentally pressing the back button :P

So in general, I'm whiny and thinking of moving, obviously not now but who knows.

I love the city and the few friends I have made here but it seems all the people I would have hung out with has really left the city or is out in the burbs. Also it seems Jason has moved on already which I'm happy for but it's still feels... depressing. Not that I don't have a few people I really like out there that could possibly be more either... but at the same time I don't know if it could be or not.

Mainly what even got me on these thoughts of moving was one of my best friends in SF saying that he was going to be moving back into the city once he gets a job and he needs roommates. Weather wise I would so take him up on that offer. But there's still very few people I know in SF. I'm afraid that, just like Chicago, I will be in my same rut. This though also got me thinking of DC area because a lot of friends I know live in that area.

Either way I can't leave Chicago now. I have a condo with Jason and have no real opportunity to make any huge changes like that right now. That doesn't mean I'm not considering it.

I hate to say I wish we had broken the relationship off before we got the condo... but both of us were basically afraid to hurt the other.

Gah! So many thoughts in my head today, good, bad and creative, no wonder I can't concentrate on work.