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Tired of bars
Mar. 24th, 2007 11:38 pmI feel bad now. My BF just left to go to the bar to go see one of our friends for a rubber event and I didn't go with him. I mean I have my reasons why.
I feel uncomfortable in bars
I hate the smoke
I am not very good with interaction in bars except with people I know so tend to stay close to my BF and do not much of anything.
I don't really like bars in general, they're small and and I don't drink and just make me feel weird.
:P
But yeah I should have gone with him though. I just don't like going to bars. It's even sad when I go to the WCBT nights when we have to go to the bar and even then I typically stay to myself and just zone out or something. Let's even put it this way too, my first real gay outting experience was at a club. I liked the music okay (too loud) and loved to see the guys dancing but I couldn't get out of my seat to join any of them and would much rather sit and watch and be... alone. Part of it I think has to do with environment. I am more likely to enjoy a nice quiet coffee house with a few friends together talking and maybe new people joining in but when they are all crammed into a place and all disjointed and such... it's just not me and I feel very uncomfortable there. I think it's just a combo of too many people and small places that make me more mouse-ie. So yeah I just wanted to write this down though to say I am sorry that I didn't go with you tonight Jason and I do still love you I am just very uncomfortable in those situations/places.
I feel uncomfortable in bars
I hate the smoke
I am not very good with interaction in bars except with people I know so tend to stay close to my BF and do not much of anything.
I don't really like bars in general, they're small and and I don't drink and just make me feel weird.
:P
But yeah I should have gone with him though. I just don't like going to bars. It's even sad when I go to the WCBT nights when we have to go to the bar and even then I typically stay to myself and just zone out or something. Let's even put it this way too, my first real gay outting experience was at a club. I liked the music okay (too loud) and loved to see the guys dancing but I couldn't get out of my seat to join any of them and would much rather sit and watch and be... alone. Part of it I think has to do with environment. I am more likely to enjoy a nice quiet coffee house with a few friends together talking and maybe new people joining in but when they are all crammed into a place and all disjointed and such... it's just not me and I feel very uncomfortable there. I think it's just a combo of too many people and small places that make me more mouse-ie. So yeah I just wanted to write this down though to say I am sorry that I didn't go with you tonight Jason and I do still love you I am just very uncomfortable in those situations/places.
